You are not too much. You simply need specific conditions to thrive. Could it be that while you are striving to be a periwinkle, Capricorn, you are actually an orchid? Stop being so hard on yourself. You are not too soft or too anything for wanting specific things in life. You are blessed and unique and that is your strength.
Cosmic tip: Ask your angels to help and guide you, then simply trust the signs and support that flow through.